Monday, April 22, 2013

Apr 22 - Chocolate for Dinner

  I had chocolate for dinner, and I'm ok with that.  Before I get to that though, thank you so much to everyone who sent message of love and support following my Apr 20 post.  I will clarify and say that for the most part, I believe I am a person who has intrinsic worth as a human being and that I am as 'good enough' as I need to be just the way I am.  What I was attempting to get across was the sense of paranoia and pure fear that grips me in moments of intense stress and panic.  Apparently I did a good job as I think I have worried a few of you for which I apologise.  Deep down I know I will always be ok because I have people around me who are loving and supportive.

  I had a very busy and very long day.  It started with an appointment at the doctor's office to follow up on my vertigo bouts since it's been almost a month now and they are still intermittently occurring.  The doctor checked me over again and my blood pressure and ears both still looked fine.  She ran me through some balance exercises and even with eyes closed I passed.  She is still confident that it is just an inner ear infection, but in order to rule out any of the nastier possibilities she has given me a referral to an ear, nose and throat specialist.
  I headed off to work after that and actually made it in by just after 10am which was good.  Today was invoice entry deadline so I knew it would be a busy day.  I also had to work out some internal transfers which took me a little while to get the hang of.  Luckily my office roomie was on hand to field my queries and help me get there.
  As the morning and afternoon very quickly vanished, I found myself stuck at the office late.  Slogging away all on my lonesome.  This must be the latest I've ever been there because I got to meet the cleaners this evening.  As an office worker I've learned that being on a first name basis with the night security and night cleaners is a surefire sign that you are there too late too often, but it's also nice to be able to meet and appreciate the people who work behind the scenes to make your space a nicer place by the morning.
  I got a 'Hello, how are you?' message from TwoWrongs in the early evening and I whined that I was stuck at work.  We chatted while I plugged away at my invoices and he bemoaned the lack of chocolate at his place.  I had in fact, successfully avoided two forms of chocolate today.  The first, Cadbury Dairy Milk being offered around at morning tea time, and the second, in chocolate mud cake form at afternoon tea.
  TwoWrongs had resolved that he would have to make a trip to Koko Black in Carlton to alleviate his chocolate crisis, and since QV is on the way, he suggested I finish up work and come along too.  Why the hell not I thought, beats being stuck here.  And so it was that 45 minutes later I found myself a Koko Black enjoying chocolate for dinner.
  It's very easy to stay late at work regularly when there is nothing waiting for you at home (and no, bunny rabbits do not count).  I used to work ridiculously long hours once upon a time not so long ago and it's a habit I've mostly gotten out of.  The challenges of this new role would make it very easy to slip into that habit again so I was very grateful to be rescued tonight.

  Today's food was:

  • Breakfast was an English muffin topped with two rashers of short cut bacon and a fried egg, sunny-side down followed by a small just ripe banana.
  • Morning snack was two dried peach halves.
  • Lunch was a 300g creamy chicken noodle soup with two slices of toasted Bürgen wholemeal and seeds bread spread with Devondale butter and a 250ml nudie Houston juice.
  • Afternoon snack was a green nashi pear, cored and sliced.
  • "Dinner" was a Belgian Spoil and a Belgian hot chocolate at Koko Black in Carlton.  From left to right, the 'Spoil' contains, chocolate ice-cream, a divinely thick chocolate mousse (Captain Cupcake it made me think of you, you HAVE to try it!), two chocolate truffles - Champagne and Cointreau flavours, two perfect Florentines and a small chocolate and walnut brownie.

  TwoWrongs dropped me back at QV after we'd enjoyed a dessert each, an hour's spirited conversation, and singing along to Tom Waits' Better Off Without A Wife, and from there I drove home.  It was a late night, especially when I then had to finish yesterday's blog and get this one written, but at least it ended up being a fun night.
  Jess

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